Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Sometimes when you get so caught up in the stresses of everyday life, the most important
occasions are in danger of simply slipping by without even notice. I've been feeling down lately and frustrated over our current circumstances. I kept looking at the time passing with angst and tapping my feet nervously.
Today, I glanced at the calendar and thought: "It's already..April 19th
?! Tomorrow is the 20th
..ugh. Is this Greencard EVER
going to come..What are we going to do if it doesn't arrive by May 1st
Then I froze..... 4.20Our wedding anniversary.
Tomorrow we'll be married for 4 years
Last month we had been so upset because we thought we would be in two different countries
on our anniversary. We're still together despite the odds against us. Yes, we're living in our boss's basement and struggling. No the Green Card hasn't
arrived and everything is a mess.
But we're together.
After 4 years, My heart still hammers in my chest when he pulls off his shirt at night and climbs into bed. He still makes my knees tremble and my face flush. We still kiss before separating...even if it's just to walk into another room. We're still dancing around the kitchen in the morning and singing stupid songs. We're still finding new things to talk about even though we're together..LITERALLY 24 hours a day. Sure we fight, we've slammed doors and cried tears. We held eachother tightly, talking all night until it was resolved. We refused to go to bed angry.
He's still my bestfriend
and I have such a crush on him
...even after being married for 4 years
. He's going to laugh when he sees these pictures. I snapped them today in the office. He jokes about how I take an ordinary photograph of him and make it look like a "model portfolio shot". He has no clue how beautiful he truly is.
He's sitting across from me while I type this in the office. He's croutched over the light table absorbed in a sketch. His pencil moving rapidly over the paper. I know that when I turn off this computer, We're going to walk home holding hands. I know that I'm going to fall asleep with my head on his chest. I know I'm going to wake up in the morning in his arms. He's going to pull me into the shower with him and another day will begin together.That makes me happier than you can possibly imagine.
I'm grateful for every minute we have together, more than I can express in words. There is so much I could write to describe my love
for him... but I'm going to sign off now and put it in a card.
For this entry, I pulled out some older entries from my private folder
and added them to this photoblog.1
. Someone like you - April 20, 2005.
wrote this entry a year ago)2. How I met Eric - April, 4th 2005
(the story of how we met)3. A Wedding story - April 19th 2004
(our not so conventional wedding day)
I want to do something special for Eric tomorrow...